Stone of stumbling and rock of offense ([info]wordweaverlynn) wrote,
@ 2008-07-21 06:41:00
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ANNALS OF PTSD: One More Casualty
Joseph Dwyer was a hero who became famous for carrying a wounded child toward help, an act of courage documented in one of the most famous photographs to emerge from the Iraq War.

A medic from Long Island whose brothers were cops, he joined up after 9/11. He cared for the wounded on the battlefield as the army fought their way from the Euphrates to Baghdad. When medics are under fire, they don't shoot back. They're too busy putting pressure bandages on sucking chest wounds, or tying tourniquets on the remains of a limb, or strapping their wounded friends onto stretchers. He was decorated for his courage with a Combat Medical Badge for service under fire.

He came home safely from Iraq, but he couldn't get the war out of his head. The VA gave him medicine and inpatient treatment, but they weren't enough.

Imagine the endless nightmare of war superimposed on your normal life -- ordinary sounds threaten death, roadside litter becomes an improvised bomb. Imagine the heart-pounding terror every time someone knocks on your door. He lived in that hell for five years. Finally he died there.

Technically, the death was from a drug overdose. But when you're frightened sick all the time, unrelentingly, any drug that will give you surcease can be an unbearable temptation.

I hope he has found peace and rest now in a place without gunfire. I pray that his wife and daughter, his friends, his family, will all find consolation. But for those who live with this pain, there is very little consolation.

PTSD destroys lives, and it can spread to your partners and into the next generation. My father was a medic in the Korean War. I'm sure that some of what he did to me, some of the living nightmares i still fight, came from the battlefields of Korea.

In "Let the People Speak," Stephen Fry interviewed various (possibly fictional) members of the British public about the first Gulf War, which was then beginning:
"Let's get one thing straight," said a doctor from Long Melford. "Soldiers are made from flesh and bone and tissue that is, as Wilfred Owen said, 'so dear achieved.' It has taken them from 17 to 30 years to grow into what they are. In seconds it can be a tangle of blood and smashed material that can never be put right again."

. . . "Are you in the business of comforting the enemy?"

"No, I'm in the business of repairing flesh. Just be sure. For God's sake be sure."

Minds can be smashed beyond all repairing, too. It took 26 years to make Joseph Dwyer into the kind of man who would rescue the wounded under fire.

It took 91 days on the battlefield to destroy him.


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[info]noveldevice
2008-07-21 01:53 pm UTC (link)
I am the child of a soldier who successfully reintegrated into the world. When I think of him, I think of all the other soldiers who weren't as lucky. Why haven't we learned this lesson already?

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[info]mythusmage
2008-07-21 01:55 pm UTC (link)
There are questions regarding the treatment Mr. Dwyer got from the VA. A number of veterans have complained of second class treatment for mental health patients, especially for those suffering from PTSD. Our society's mental health care overall has long been a matter of concern, based as it is on a view of humanity and human behavior that has long been known to be wrong.

Joseph Dwyer was ill-served by the country he served, and by the medical fraternity he served so well. Reforms are needed in both. These are points people on both sides of the matter of our presence in Iraq are agreed upon.

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[info]crazysoph
2008-07-21 02:42 pm UTC (link)
I know of an LJ-er Iraq veteran who documented (not always in open posts) her fight with the VA to get her own PSTD treated. It's pretty much confirming everything you point to as worth questioning.

Crazy(and the answers, in a nutshell, point me to concluding malice on the part of the VA)Soph

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[info]jehannamama
2008-07-21 02:18 pm UTC (link)
Oh how horrible.. and how well said.
That is so tragic.

I cared for several men with PTSD from WWI and II in my younger days. Since Nam they just throw them out on the street with pills that half of them can't remember to take, or won't, or that don't help.

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[info]faithhopetricks
2008-07-21 02:31 pm UTC (link)
What a beautiful, heartbreaking post. Thank you for writing it, altho I wish you didn't have to.

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[info]theodicy
2008-07-21 03:18 pm UTC (link)
Having met a number of homeless vets, many from Vietnam, I can only guess what horrors make them live outside society. But I'm still outraged at the sub-par care they get.

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[info]adamant_turtle
2008-07-21 05:43 pm UTC (link)
And to think that we actually talk about PTSD these days, and have SOME things going on for the victims...imagine those days, not too long ago, when little was known, and little was WANTED to be known...

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[info]noveldevice
2008-07-21 05:53 pm UTC (link)
You're back home now! Everything is fine! Now kiss your wife and your 2.5 kids and go to work and produce!

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[info]rmjwell
2008-07-21 08:14 pm UTC (link)
And consume! Don't forget to consume!!!

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[info]halfmoon_mollie
2008-07-21 06:30 pm UTC (link)
From "This American Life" heard yesterday...

Soldier of Misfortune.

When John came back from fighting in Iraq, he refused to leave his house. He was paranoid. He had violent nightmares—the same ones every night. Unlike a lot of vets, John got treatment. His doctor at the Veterans Affairs hospital felt optimistic about his case. And then John attacked his fiancée and her mother. Chris Neary tells the story of one veteran's struggle to return to being the person he was before the war.


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[info]firecat
2008-07-21 07:25 pm UTC (link)
In a society full of disposable products, eventually some people become disposable, too.

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[info]autumnfaerie
2008-07-21 10:14 pm UTC (link)
I feel our country has failed the men and women that are willing to put their lives on the line for us. Most of the time, it doesn't seem like a fair trade.

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[info]qe2
2008-07-22 03:12 am UTC (link)
Ow.

Ow.

I'm sorry.

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[info]pure_agnostic
2008-07-22 04:41 am UTC (link)
Thanks for posting this. As much as Dwyer's story breaks my heart, I still want to read it. A reminder that some pains go too deep.

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[info]mizdandylynn
2008-07-22 02:22 pm UTC (link)
Being a survivor with PTSD.... I truly understand. I have been lucky to get good help... I am sad and angry that we are not doing the same for our armed forces

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