January 25th, 2010

organize, to-do list, survive

PERSONAL UPDATE: Hanging in There

I know it's been ages since I posted much of substance here. Then I did the posts on suicide -- no wonder I've got half my f-list (the newer half) worrying about me.

Given my ongoing unemployment, the recent move, and the fact that we're buried in winter, I am doing amazingly well. The house has so much more sunlight that it makes a noticeable difference. Also, the relief of getting out of the apartment is much greater than I expected.

I got through the move with the help of friends and Full Competency Mode, I am slowly unwinding from that, but slowly. I am not in a position yet to let myself really break down and feel everything. I need certain protections in place that I don't yet have.

Last year felt like I was clinging by my fingers, and God or fate or something was stomping on them. I have not posted about much of it, or most of it. It was difficult, but you know what? There were still joys.

There are still joys. Unpacking books is one. ("Oooh, look what I have!") Getting the desktop computers set up will be another. All in good time.

I'm even working on my lists of questions from friends. Anybody wanna ask me a few, I'm game.

And how are you doing?